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May 15, 2012 2:51 pm
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Today is so windy its hard to believe. I watch some of the trees around my home nearly bend double over, I think there will be places where trees will fall.
I watch the kids as they attack adult life head on. Sometimes buckling with hard times that (at this age) I just shake my head at. I remember what it was like to be young and so full of ones self. Nothing unattainable and everything impossible all at the same time. Youth and the vageries suffered in youth.
I remember times when love seemed to be the simplest thing on earth and others when it sent me reeling in confusion, but always good on some level. Again, I watch my kids and their growing relationships. a daughter confused because somedays she absolutely can't stand a man she married because she loved so much, and other days when she can't imagine a minute without him. My son and his girlfriend, whose relationship never has those wonderful highs, but also never hits those painful confusing lows. They have an easy, steady, comfortable fit. A beauty in its own.
I watch my friends in and out of love and marriages, and reflect on my own rocky experiences. Am I ready to be going through all of that in my own life again. I am not sure. I have so much to consider. After so many years of what fealt like a lethal rollar coaster, followed by years of healing, am I ready to even consider dating. I lecture many on building walls and always keeping people out. Yet, I think I build walls and keep people out, sometimes too much.
With the wind dying down, todays pollen surge will start to settle and I can get out and enjoy the world. my own small space, in my own small ways. As I have grown accustomed to my hermitesque life style. My small circle of hand picked and fabulous friends, safe, wonderful, and always risk free. My thoughts will continue to race, and I will push them back, smiling softly and knowing that with age has come patience. I needen't rush into anything I am not ready to face. I can move slowly even if it is almost too slow at times.
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My Pic
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Feb 15, 2012 12:03 pm
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By the way. I really don't like this picture. It is ancient. I was just recently divorced way back when it was taken, heavy set and pretty much lost emotionally. I think I shall have my son's new girlfriend take a new one. So much has changed in life since those ancient times, I think its about time to celebrate and embrace the new. Let's see how long it takes to get that done!
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Winter
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Feb 15, 2012 11:57 am
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Winter this year has been gentle. I am grateful in many ways since my college aged daughter and grandson are often on the roads for great distances. In other ways though, I worry. Our world is changing,too little winter means too little water come spring. I know from experience that these types of season's do cycle, but have not noticed things to have changed in such degrees and for so long a period of seasons. The river in the park I like to hike disappeared last year. It has been low before in late summer, but never gone. This winter being as it is with little snow, it may not even be here for spring or early summer. I think the world as we kno0w it may be in some serious danger. I walk the same lakeshores I walked with my father, only the beach I walk was ten feet or more underwater when I was there with him as a youth. In our constant need to be and to do and to have better than the next, we are overtaxing the precious world we live in. Cars are bigger, faster and more reliable than horses, but noone ever poisened the environment to create a horse, or to care for one. The by-products from their use are completely biodegradable and nourish the earth, not poisonous and life threatening. Sigh....maybe our forefathers did not live so backwards....maybe the idea of taking as little as possible needs to catch on.
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The Happiest of Holidays and The Merriest of Christmas's to All!
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Dec 13, 2011 2:31 pm
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Hello to all, this holiday season. I have been reading here locally and see quite a few frustrated people. Christians mad at commercialism and the fact that most employers prefer Happy Holidays and not Merry Christmas. Traditionally this is the time of year when people step back to appresciate their families and friends, coworkers and aquaintances in new light. Perhaps they honor this connection with a gift or a card, maybe just a kiss and a hug. Sometimes it does go over budget, but we use the season as an excuse. This is also the time of year when we become extra aware of our neighbors and those who are within our communities who have to make due on very little, and we contribute a little more ourselves to see they have just a bit of relief. In all these things, which emotions and experience give, We remember the reason we celebrate....one small child born in an uncertain place, long ago. A child that touched the hearts of oh so countless many for well over 2000 years now. So when you wonder what you can do in this world, maybe for others and maybe just in your own life, keep this in mind....The Power of One. One child, born in one manger, over 2000 years ago and however you celebrate, the things done and lessons taught by this ONE are remembered and honored still over 2000 years later....So what can each one of us do? Amazing things....we just need to do it in small ways each day. May you all be blessed this holiday season...may your dreams be realized, and may you and yours be warm and safe. Look around at the holiday splender....and remember it only took one to inspire. Strive to be one more. Hugs, Love and Kisses
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Mysterious
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Oct 25, 2011 3:26 pm
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I love going home and visiting with old friends. Hiking old trails. Nostalgia is nothing if not inbedded in my very being. I miss my father, but it is in the UP that we were always closest. Fishing, hunting, exploring, living; life without interruptions. You are never far, but beside me on every trail. Loved you dad, thank you for everything.
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Moving Day!
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Oct 7, 2010 4:19 pm
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How exciting! Moving now to a new state, new town, new house. Still have the same old job....lol. Retired most of the time and just fill in. Selling the old house, working on the new one. It is great when you can go places you love being anyway. Soon that big old farm house will be nothing more than the backdrop for photos of people I love. Bad memories can fade away as new good things take their place....Fabulous!
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What is Perfect
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Sep 17, 2010 11:03 pm
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I bought salt water taffy, and got memories. Tall, blonde, blue eyed, overly pudgy football player, too sweet, too shy, certainly not every girls dream. I dreamed about him though, all the time in high school. Now, lets just say a whole lot of years late, one piece of salt water taffy, and I remember him.
I remember him, not because he was particularly remarkable in any way other than he had to have been the most genuinely nice human being I ever met.
Why is this a blog? The questions came up, What attracts a man to a woman and vise versa. It sparked a lively conversation, but no answers from either gender that seemed reliable in their honesty.
What attracts me? Tons of things. I prefer the kind of beauty in people you just can't see at a glance. I prefer daisies from the side of the road to a dozen roses. Daisies show me that in the flash of a thought something beautiful made you think of me, and you wanted to share it. Roses, say some ingrained message about some holiday said you had to do something so....here. I know that honesty in a partner and fidelity, would thrill me. Intelligence excites me. A sense of humor, be it wry and twisted at times, just makes you family. I can't truly say there is any one thing I want or look for, but there is one thing I do not want. I do not want perfection. I don't want to settle either. I want someone I can like, they should like me to, from there its all a learning and growth experience.
So, what am I looking for in a man.......someone real. Try finding that.
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Harley Lovers
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Sep 16, 2010 9:42 pm
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A comfortable pair of shoes. Reminicent of those my mother made me wear to gym, the ones that got me teased. A shadow that plays tag now and then. Darting from the bushes with an invisible grin. So....what is up? How are you? I am almost never here and barely ever there. Yet, I do think about you now and then. Kicked back in those comfy sneakers, contiplating a sunny afternoon ride, the colors are beautiful this year.
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Are we or aren't we?
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Oct 2, 2008 1:05 pm
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So, you love us. You miss us terribly, myself and our daughter. Do you expect me to feel for you? We welcome you into our lives and our home.....you say you want to be here but you never come. We wait for you, but........you over slept, you missed your flight, you have no money, there was an emergency.....there was...always is....yet another excuse. You say a lot of things......but its only words....nothing more. There is no meaning behind the words, not even that for which the english language provides. With you, the words I love you are about as wonderful as opening a beautifully wrapped gift only to find that it is an empty box.....there is nothing inside. You make promises....but they aren't real. The longer I know you, the less anything about you is. Like the operator at the end of a miss placed call you are just a voice and nothing more.
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Fall
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Sep 28, 2008 4:02 pm
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Finally fall is here and we look forward to holloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas....then the ringing out of one year and the ringing in of another. I look forward to the new year with hopes of change and new things. The past few years have really been rough and I hope that is all in the past.
I look forward to 2009 being the year for new beginnings for adventure......for new and better things to come into life.
wish me luck.
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